Why I Choose To Be Happy

Everyone always seems to be asking me how I stay so positive, or accusing me of hiding how I really feel. I've been through a lot of crap and have been hurt by a lot of people. I have every right to feel broken and upset but, here’s the thing, I choose not to.

The honest truth is, this is my life. Everything is my choice. Sure, maybe I can't control the way other people treat me, but I can control the way I accept that. So its not that I'm hiding my feelings or have a fear of opening up to people, I really just don't let the negative people in my life control me. It’s not worth it to me to be upset.

I've been there, I've been sad. I've had those nights where I do nothing but sit and cry on the bathroom floor and I've cried so hard that I can't breathe. But those nights sucked and I never want to relive them. So I don't.

That’s not to stay that I still don't care. I still get hurt, I still feel broken inside, and some nights are still harder than the others. But despite any sadness I'm feeling, I know I'm strong enough to not let it effect me. I don't want to look back and remember crying and being sad, I want to look back on my life and remember all the happy moments with the people who didn't hurt me. There’s no need to waste any second of my life being upset because that’s a second that could have been spent doing something much more worth remembering.

I'm not avoiding my feelings. I recognize every single one of them and I feel them so deeply, but you get to choose how you deal with that. You can let negative feelings overwhelm you and take you over or you can choose to recognize them and leave them behind.

I deserve to be happy. I deserve to love my life. Anyone and anything that’s not contributing to my happiness isn't important enough to influence me. I've made the choice to only let negative emotions shape me into knowing how I don't want to feel and help build me into a much stronger, happier, person. I've made the choice to spend my life smiling instead of shedding tears over worthless people.

I've made the choice to be happy.

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